Good morning!!

I know, I'm so beautiful!!

lol, I love you too! ��

I should put an ad out for people looking for trophy wives! I'm everything they need: tall, elegant, educated, diplomatic, and pretty!
Here I am, men, the perfect way to show off your success by not only having a successful career, but landing a beautiful woman too! I'll make you look good and all your friends will be jealous.

Just kidding. I want more from a relationship than to be an adornment or support for a man's ego.

My mom is making my fresh pressed carrot juice!! I'm getting so healthy here!!

Yay that's great! ����

I wish we could talk on the phone!

I want to tell you about this thing with Robyn

It's okay!!

I think we should just not call our relationship anything and just enjoy it for what it is!

Also you should come to Florida to kidnap me for a few days!! ����

I promise to be loving to you too!! We have something really special together and I want to honor it.

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I'm learning a lot about love from being with you. I hope that I am also offering you good things.

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Beat them up!!!

I am too actually. It's relaxing to be this way!!

Hehehehe!! I just got some cute outfits from express!! A new dress for going dancing too! Come get me! ����

Come get me and we can go out together!!

Lol, okay! I want you to be responsible because that's good for you!!

Maybe another time!

Lol, that's a nice fantasy! I think you'd miss your family and friends!!

Ohh I forgot to tell you!!

There is the best sushi restaurant I've ever been to in my life here!! So amazing, fresh, creative, and great vibes!!

If you come we'll have to go!! A local place in Oviedo that's been named best in FL!

It's not stuffy or stuck up or over-priced! Just a really creative and fun sushi place!

Yeah! On the beach!!

Oh yeah, I forgot about that!

I think you mentioned that before!

I thought you were talking about acid though!

You look so nice!! Wish you were here!!!

I showed your pic to my mom! She thinks you look nicer with shorter hair!

Oh okay!

That would be fun!

I keep looking at your new pic and missing you

Okay honey buns!

Are you planning to visit next time I'm in Florida?

Next time I'll have weekends off!!

Okay

Be productive!!

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I'm eating so good!

I had homemade chicken potpie!

I drink fresh pressed cranberry juice every day!

Yeah, I'm gonna treat myself better when I get back!

When I get back you have to smell me

Are you with Esther right now?

Why?

That would be nice! I was curious, because you usually use people's names and this time you keep referring to them as 'friend' so I thought there might be a reason for that.
Hope you have a goodnight!! Talk to you tomorrow!

Just talking with my mom! How is your night going?

Why is that?

Aww

I would love that!!

Okay, 15 minutes!!

Hehe!!

Want me to call you before I go to bed?

I'm out on the lanai right now with my mom and can hear lots of insects! I prolly go to bed in 30 min!

On my way to bed

Good morning cutie!!
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Haha! I would like that too!! I could give you lots of kisses!!

I would look at it and love it!! Put my face next to yours and hold you close! ����

No, I haven't been!

I've been to the grand canyon and painted desert and petrified forest! I think that's the only one I've seen!
I want to see the Everglades!

There's lots of springs here!!

I heard they're really nice, but haven't been! People here talk about Wekiva and blue springs a lot!

Can I ask you for a favor?

It's kind of a big thing. I'm getting Geico to tow my car to get it repaired, but they can't tow it without the keys. I wanted to know if you could give them the keys so they could tow it?

The other option is to leave my car on the street until Tuesday when they can come out to work on it. I just feel uneasy leaving it out there because it's pretty exposed.

My keys are in my apartment

If you can't do it it's okay.

Jenny would let you in

Geico is towing it. They just need the keys. So you would give them the keys

Are you sure?

I'm sorry to ask you. Before they told me they could tow it without the keys and today they said they couldn't find anyone to do it

Front desk isn't open on Saturdays

It might be last to wait until Tuesday for them to come out to it

okay*

Yeah, I hate having my car out there like that and I can't look at it or move it or anything

Okay, thank you. Jenny didn't answer so I'll see if Steve can let you into my apartment. The other problem is that I don't know where my keys are in my apartment. Could be in my purse or backpack!

The apartment door is now open. I just got off the phone with Geico and they said a tow person would be over within the hour. Can you be there to give them the keys?

Yeah, I thought they would tow it later, but they had to call for it right now and they're making it really difficult so I had to accept it.

The tow company just called me and said a driver is on his way and should be there in 30 min

In the area we normally park! Past newstead ave

Thank you Nick!

Did you find the keys?

Awwwwww

My love

I miss her

Thank you so much!! I really appreciate it!!

Aww, so fun! I love hula hoop!! Glad you were able to make it over there!!

I'm going to have to ask for another favor since the car keys are now with my car. Geico will be towing my car to your house from Safelite at 4:30pm after it's been repaired. Would you be available to take the keys?

It should arrive at your house around 5pm

Okay

I'll ask them to put the keys in the mailbox

I'm not sure if the tow company is allowed to put keys in a mailbox for liability reasons. They may be required to hand them to a person. Geico asked for the name and phone number of the person whose home I'm having it towed to so I gave them that. They said they would call you when the tow truck was on its way! I'm sorry to inconvenience you. Hopefully we can work it out so it doesn't interrupt your plans this evening!

Yeah!! Do it!!!

Send me pics!! ����

Yeah!! Could be dangerous to workout outside!

Maybe you should do weights instead!

That's good. If something happened to you I'd have to kick your butt!

Car should be on the way to your place!

You look nice! You should wear the no-show socks with those shoes and I think a tank top would look better with your skirt!! But you look good!!

A cream color shirt would be better, but gray is okay! Not sure on the time. They haven't called me. Hopefully they will call you, but if they're working on it, probably within an hour.

I'm still on my period and have cramps. The benches at Epcot are hot and when I sit on them it's really comforting! Helps relax muscles down there that tense up with cramps!

My keys are in your mailbox!

Thanks honey!

I'm still at Epcot!!

Awww, me too! Try to be productive so you can visit me!! ����

Your abs are coming in great! Good for you for doing two workouts!! ����

Oh sorry!! Well you're still doing great! How was pride?!

Your booty looked great! That sounds fun.
No I'm not bothered by that as much as I'm bothered by you being with other people at the same time as me. I wish it was just us

It doesn't bother me. I just don't like that you see other people

Does it bother you that I have been with guys?

Haha! Yeah that would be fun

I don't know! I just thought I'd turn the question around!!

Maybe you prefer women who previously only dated women!

Does it bother you that I'm heterosexual rather than pansexual?

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Does it bother you that I prefer monogamy?

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You don't have to answer these right now, because I know you're going out, but I'm curious.
Why do you want polyamory? Do you understand how I love and respect that?

Okay, I just feel less important when I know you see other people and/or are looking to see other people.

I don't see why you need and want other romantic partners because I don't need or want them. But you could explain why you need/want them.

You don't have to explain it to me tonight though

I know you're going out so I don't want to distract!

What does Esther and other people you want to see romantically offer that I don't?

Okay, have a goodnight. Talk to you later!

That's awesome! Sounds like a great party!!

I love you too!

Did you watch the video?

Ohh

You had to swipe down to see the whole video

Can you watch the video?

Were you able to watch it this time?

I said that I had been that girl, but I appreciate the message!! Kind of wish the video pointed out that a big part of the reason is because she's black. They might have tried by showing white girls as "that girl".

Wow. I'm always surprised. I think you're good looking, but I wouldn't think you would get that much attention!!

Basically to achieve the kind of love that you want, I have to rid myself of jealousy and possessiveness. In your words, I have to lose my "ego". In that way I will be happy for you when you see other people and will be comfortable with polyamory.
You telling me that you don't want to be exclusive with me feels like a push back, and it is one. I feel like I'm getting conflicting messages. You're simultaneously saying that you want us to dive deep and be uninhibited while telling me that we should not be closer in other ways. I can do what you want, but I want you to acknowledge that this is a very difficult thing for me. I can be with you without labels and dive deep and work on getting rid of my jealousy and possessiveness. However I won't be the same person. You may not like me as much. And it's a huge thing for me to take on. It will require a lot from me. So if I'm going to do that, I at the very least want acknowledgement from you that you understand what I'm putting into this.

It also requires a lot of trust on my part to dive deeply into something not knowing what I'm diving into and not having any sense of comfort or security of relationship status.

You're asking me to trust you enough to dive deep with no security, and to also make these big changes in myself. At the same time you admit you don't trust me enough to be comfortable in a polyamory or monogamy with me.
So you want to dive deep, but not into any of those things since there's not enough trust for that.

Yeah I do

I feel that you think what you want is a given and there's no questioning it and that things I have to do to make that work are taken for granted.
And what I want is this very huge "sacrifice" for you and I have to be interrogated as to why I want it and I'm asked to think more about it and told it's about my ego. The fact that the majority of this relationship has been the way you wanted with regards to how you like to do things is just not even acknowledged. Not to mention that polyamory is a philosophy of privileged people and benefits most people with the most power. I'm just frustrated.

It doesn't feel fair that you ask me to dive deep without security which requires the kind of trust that you don't have with me. It even offends me because you would not dive deep in the way that I would like because you don't trust me and other reasons.
You want me to make myself completely vulnerable with you without any security at all. It sounds reckless to me. It would be putting myself in a very dangerous situation. I'm supposed to be transforming myself into a version that you prefer and then diving deep into something unknown with no security, requiring tons of trust on my part while you tell me that you don't have that trust for me.

Nothing that you can offer me.
I'm worried that I will feel used. Dive deep without inhibitions I assume means that we would have sex, which is something that makes me more vulnerable. You want all my love, affection, attention. Dive deep, be more intimate with you, but there's no trust. It sounds like a recipe for disaster. If things go south, you have Esther and Jamie. You have lots of friends and housemates. I take this leap with you without relationship security and I have nothing. You're asking me to trust you when you don't trust me.