I like it if I'm doing it. The position with you over he wasn't a good one for me. I need a position where I have more power to feel comfortable with stuff like that. But yeah, if I'm doing it, I think it can be nice.

Well, I might not ever change my mind, so you can assume it won't change unless I let you know.

I'm not worried about missing out on anything. I will let you know what I enjoy and want! Don't worry about that!

I'm not saying that this is what's happening, but if you're feeling pressure to be more like a rapist or like Rob, please don't feel that.
I didn't do what we did with Rob and I don't want you to be like him or some other person. Of course even if I did do that or something different, it doesn't mean I want to or need to do it with another person.

Okay, I just want to make sure you don't feel that pressure. Because of what you previously told me.

You have been telling me you think I want things that I have told you I don't want. I want to make sure you hear me and also that you don't feel pressured to act a certain way.

I said, it was okay that we did that and I meant it.

What I also said is that I don't want to do it again. That's where I feel like you stopped hearing me.

I don't want to be told that I enjoyed something after telling you I don't want to do it. Whether or not I enjoyed it, how I enjoyed it, or if I appeared to enjoy it to you is irrelevant. I want to be heard with no argument after.

Thanks!

I just don't want to feel like it's an argument. I want to say what I want and have you say "okay, I understand" and not tell me things to the contrary/tell me it's just for now. I appreciate that you are now hearing me without arguing with what I'm saying.

Right. Some things are not up for debate. I don't feel heard when I'm being contradicted. I understand that wasn't your goal.

Crap, just got to the gym and my period is starting and I don't have a pad.

You did say that

Why don't they have pads in the women's locker room

Adriane's Workout
Wednesday, September 28, 2016 at 1:17 PM Squat Set 1: 80 lb × 5 Set 2: 85 lb × 5 Set 3: 85 lb × 4 One arm dumbbell Row Set 1: 27.5 lb × 8 Set 2: 27.5 lb × 8 Set 3: 27.5 lb × 8 Standing Dumbbell Overhead Press Set 1: 15 lb × 10 Set 2: 15 lb × 10 Set 3: 15 lb × 10 Romanian Deadlift Set 1: 115 lb × 5 Face Pull Set 1: 20 lb × 15 Set 2: 20 lb × 15 Set 3: 20 lb × 15 Workout Notes: Good. Got period and too tired for Farmer's carry!

Hey honey, hope your day is going well!

Hey!

What are you up to?

Sounds nice! What kind of food you thinking about?

Yum!!

Come by my place?

You've been working long shifts!!

I have food!

Soup and watermelon!

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Morning! I was just thinking about you! ��

Did you get some food last night?

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I can vote now

That's good. I'm thinking about taking today off

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I want you to watch my deadlift!

Maybe this weekend we can workout!

I think I'm noticing a difference in my body already, but I probably ruined it by eating pasta today!

Okay honey! Sorry just saw this!

Hey love!

How is everything going?

I took a nap after class because I felt like I didn't have any energy!

Now I kinda feel bad because I slept too much

Okay, I'll eat some soup and head over! ��

Want me to bring a small dessert?

Omw

Miss you!!

Hey love, how was your meeting?

Good. Meetings, workout, cleaning, and studying today. I stopped by Ruler, family dollar, and local harvest before I went home!

I wanted to ask if everything is okay or if it's just me. I am feeling needy/less loved

Okay. I was worried that you think I'm annoying and getting tired of me.

Okay

It's good you're focused on work. I have a lot to do too, so we can both be focused and get things done

I'd like that too. Next weekend I have four days off, so if you're finished by then, it would be a great time!

I been pooping so much this morning! I feel like there's nothing left in me!

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Adriane's Workout
Friday, September 30, 2016 at 12:54 PM Squat Set 1: 45 lb × 5 Set 2: 65 lb × 3 Set 3: 90 lb × 5 Set 4: 90 lb × 5 Set 5: 90 lb × 5 Set 6: 45 lb × 4 One arm dumbbell Row Set 1: 30 lb × 8 Set 2: 30 lb × 8 Set 3: 30 lb × 8 Standing Dumbbell Overhead Press Set 1: 15 lb × 10 Set 2: 15 lb × 10 Set 3: 15 lb × 10 Romanian Deadlift Set 1: 120 lb × 5 Face Pull Set 1: 20 lb × 15 Set 2: 20 lb × 15 Set 3: 20 lb × 15 Farmer's Carry Set 1: 42.5 lb × 1 Set 2: 42.5 lb × 1 Workout Notes: Left arm is weaker in rows and Farmer's carry. Stick with 30 lbs in row and 15 in press. Move up to 45 in carry. Not sure if going low enough in deadlift. Need to stretch.

Thanks! I was motivated because I want to use the 25's next time! ����

30 lbs rows were a PR too

Thanks! Maybe tomorrow you can show me!

I will be free to workout in the afternoon! Also, we can check out Grove fest in the evening if you're free!

That's great honey!

Good job honey!
I'm having terrible anxiety. I failed an important exam. I have not failed an exam since undergrad. I am really afraid of my future. Doing terrible this semester.

I failed therapeutics. Like legit failed it. Other tests I got c's on, but this one I failed and got an email from the professors asking me to meet with them for help. I'm kind of freaking out. I don't know what's going to happen

This is the first time I have failed in post-grad. I am doing really bad. I don't know why, I know I crammed, but I have crammed before and didn't totally fail, I just got c's.

I don't even know if I can pass the course, because I don't know my grade. All I know is I failed because I got an email

But I have to pass it because if I don't it means I can't move on next semester

Last year at this time I was getting A's tutoring, and doing research. I don't know what happened. Why do I suck

I'm really scared

I'm tired of being in school. I just want my stupid degree

I would sing Becker's "loser"

I just saw my grade. I'm calculating if I can pass

Okay, it is still very possible to pass. Even if I get 75% on the next two exams and final and don't get full credit on upcoming assignments, I can still pass with a comfortable C

I just have to study more consistently

Thanks

I don't think I'm going to get residency though

No way my grades will be good enough

I won't get it unless I make friends with a preceptor on rotation and they want me as a resident

It has to be networking. That's the only way I'm going to get it

I'm not giving up though. I'm too stupid to know that I can't do it

No. It's okay, I'm fine. I will figure myself out

Nobody should feel bad for me.

Thanks

I just got out!

Yeah, but they're not paying me right. I have to bring it up to Ly the pharmacy manager. I got hired at $16, but they're paying me $10.85

I hope your workout goes well! Let's go to Snow Factory!

Yes!!

It's in Delmar

Wait, were we going to workout together?

Okay cutie!

I love you

Enjoy your workout!

Me too!

I'll do my workout when I get back. Then let's go to snow factory and then we can do work!!

If we get enough done, let's go GroveFest tonight!

Aaron was telling me some of the terrible things old white people tell him. He has had patients tell him that they would like to have him in their house.

And all kinds of weird things that only make sense in a messed up racist context. Basically because he is aesthetically pleasing and "well mannered" they think of him fondly as a pet/servant.

Come to my place at 4:15!

I found out that the class average on that exam was 53%, which is really low. So I'm not the only person who bombed, which makes me feel better

I did better than the average at least

Yeah it was an intense exam. I sucked at the gym. I couldn't do a workout, I think because I didn't eat today. I had no energy. I couldn't even do one deadlift

I didn't do my squats or rows either

I tried a couple squats and one set of rules

I'm probably anemic right now

I'll eat a lot of meat and try again tomorrow

Okay

I couldn't wait for you for my workout because gym closed at 4pm

Yeah, also I don't have my id. I can't find it, so I couldn't just swipe in and have you follow me

I have to have them check me in

Hopefully I find my ID

Okay. Have a good nap!

Gym closes at 4 tomorrow too!
Really? I didn't even notice. Why did you do that?

Give me some of that phrase

Please*

I need some amp

I miss mah honayyy

Should have came here. I can nap like a pro! You can learn from me!

I'm gonna go there and sneak in bed with you

One second! I didn't realize you had left! Just packing up some food and I'll be right down!

I'm otherwise packed and ready!

Are you still doing brunch?

Omw!

I'm getting your company a lot of interest by sitting in the window

You can dedicate the success to me for my window sitting technique. People are surprised to see me. They wonder if I'm real or not

Then they look at the sign

I hope you have a good day!

Okay

Let me know when you want to see me. If you prefer to have time apart this week so we can both focus on productivity, that would be okay. Then we can do something fun over the weekend!

No problem, I only asked because I know you're focused on your project, so I don't want to distract too much. We can see each other this week too. Tonight I'd like to have for myself, but let's see each other tomorrow night!

Okay. I get out of class at 7:30pm tomorrow

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Not a great workout today. Still a bit tired, but I think it's because I just finished my period. But I went to the gym and did some work

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Adriane's Workout
Monday, October 3, 2016 at 4:28 PM Squat Set 1: 45 lb × 3 Set 2: 65 lb × 3 Set 3: 90 lb × 4 Set 4: 85 lb × 5 Set 5: 90 lb × 3 Set 6: 45 lb × 5 One arm dumbbell Row Set 1: 30 lb × 8 Set 2: 30 lb × 8 Set 3: 30 lb × 8 Standing Dumbbell Overhead Press Set 1: 15 lb × 10 Set 2: 15 lb × 7 Set 3: 15 lb × 10 Romanian Deadlift Set 1: 115 lb × 1 Face Pull Set 1: 20 lb × 15 Set 2: 20 lb × 15 Set 3: 20 lb × 15 Farmer's Carry Set 1: 45 lb × 1 Set 2: 40 lb × 1

I hope you're having a good night!

Very nice!!

I made a date with my mentee to go to snow factory!!

If you guys do brunch next Sunday I'll invite Aaron!

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I was hoping to hear from you!

I'm good! Got done with class printed some things and now I'm going to the gym

I talked with some friends about the rotation program at Barnes that I'm applying to

Spoke with Dr Grice

I hope you have a good nap

Still feeling weak

Thinking about switching to only regular deadlifts instead of Romanian and squats

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Adriane's Workout
Tuesday, October 4, 2016 at 11:07 AM Squat Set 1: 45 lb × 5 Set 2: 65 lb × 2 Set 3: 85 lb × 5 Set 4: 65 lb × 5 One arm dumbbell Row Set 1: 30 lb × 8 Face Pull Set 1: 17.5 lb × 15 Set 2: 22.5 lb × 15 Set 3: 22.5 lb × 15 Farmer's Carry Set 1: 45 lb × 1 Set 2: 45 lb × 1 Deadlift Set 1: 45 lb × 5 Set 2: 65 lb × 5 Set 3: 85 lb × 5

Would you want to pick me up at 6:30 from school?

I bought wine today. I haven't had wine since that night I saw Chris. Kind of scared to drink out

Phone is dying! If plan changes I'll gmail you

Or you email me

Do you still want to see me or do you prefer to go home and nap?

Okay!

Great honey! Try to get some rest tonight and I will see you tomorrow!!

I made the mistake of putting a mask on my face!

Now I have to wait for it to dry without falling asleep!

Good morning!

Me too!! I am working out today even though I don't want to because if I do I get to drive to school

I do it for free parking! lol

But I am feeling better than usual today

I got a massage yesterday

Yeah

I wasn't sure if I should tell you

But it really helped. I wish I could get them every week!

I feel bad because you need one

Yeah I just wasn't sure if you'd judge me

True

I recommend it!

It was a light pressure massage mostly for relaxation purposes, but I did ask her to focus on my hamstrings and neck. My hamstrings are getting a lot more flexible!

Should I switch to regular?

I'd like your input on my workout

Can't respond right now though because I need to get ready to go

Banana pancakes for breakfast!

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Adriane's Workout
Wednesday, October 5, 2016 at 9:48 AM Squat Set 1: 45 lb × 5 Set 2: 65 lb × 5 Set 3: 85 lb × 5 Set 4: 85 lb × 5 Set 5: 85 lb × 5 Set 6: 45 lb × 5 One arm dumbbell Row Set 1: 30 lb × 8 Set 2: 30 lb × 8 Set 3: 30 lb × 8 Standing Dumbbell Overhead Press Set 1: 15 lb × 10 Set 2: 15 lb × 10 Set 3: 15 lb × 10 Face Pull Set 1: 22.5 lb × 15 Set 2: 22.5 lb × 15 Set 3: 22.5 lb × 15 Farmer's Carry Set 1: 47.5 lb × 1 Set 2: 45 lb × 1 Deadlift Set 1: 45 lb × 5 Set 2: 95 lb × 5

I got Dr Ford to agree to write a letter of recommendation for me! He was more than happy to do it. I tutored for his advanced physiology course

I am putting a lot of effort into this application. I still might not get it because of my grades. But I'm planning to look at my CV today and buff it up. I know there are a lot of things I've done that I haven't updated with yet!

I can put on there that I have a job now too.

But honestly grades are dumb. Anybody I've worked with has really valued my contributions. I think that's more important

Do you get free massages with your health insurance?