Learning about sti's today and there is a lot of anti non-monogamy sentiment being expressed by the professor and affirmed by the students

Monogamy is definitely treated as norm in this group

In this class they say that the more partners you have the more risk you have for sti

They say that people who are non-monogamous have higher risk

Actually... I made the second part up. I think she actually said that it was shown that monogamous people don't have a lower risk

It was mentioned as a surprise

Ohh, she didn't say that

They do mention msm's have higher risk

(men who have sex with men) I like how they don't just call them gay. More accurate

I'm not saying it's good, just better than I would expect from this field

With this group you have to dress up and talk a certain way and be apolitical to be professional and get respect. It's a lot of work. I would think that I could just be human and qualify for respect. They stress conformity, order, and hierarchy.

Bleeding more than usual today. I don't feel like working out

Yeah my stomach doesn't feel good either

I ate healthily today

But yesterday I had a shake and espresso, so maybe that did it

Also I think when I first start working out it increases cortisol levels

Eventually it lowers it

Actually, I'm not feeling well mentally. Not terrible, but not well either. I kind of want to skip the meeting and try to relax tonight. I'm pouring a bath as I write right now

Oh wait it's tomorrow!

That's good

I keep getting really confused as to what day it is

I was confused at school today too and thought we were having discussion instead of lecture

I'm a little flustered

I just remembered that I ordered Jimmy Johns for dinner so I'll have to get out of the bath to get it

Sub is here and bath is almost ready. Have my book ready too!

I hope you had a good day today!

Hey baby! Yes I'm awake!

I just took a little nap

I masturbated after you left!!

No, I missed biostats again.

April told me she saw the movie Lion and thought I would appreciate it

These two white guys are sitting at a table next to me and I can't help thinking they look like Nazi's. The one has his longish hair slicked back with gel and the other one has an "alternative" type look. I'm just thinking these are the kind of guys that would shoot up a mosque. They prolly spend all their time on reddit and video games

I don't know them. I just get a bad vibe

The one guy has like a Hitler style haircut

He just doesn't have the mustache prolly cuz that'd be too obvious

A lot of "alternative", hipster, or hippie white people are very white supremacist. The ones that idolize Zoey Deschanel

Oops sorry

I meant to send you this

I sent this to Diana just in case! Her dad is in Colombia right now

I've only done 5 sets of carries and my left hand is slipping

I think I'm doing them faster than usual though

It's been almost 11 minutes

Okay. Left one keeps slipping

Basic starting out
Wednesday, February 1, 2017 at 4:43 PM Farmer's Carry Set 1: 40 lb × 1 Set 2: 40 lb × 1 Set 3: 40 lb × 1 Set 4: 40 lb × 1 Set 5: 40 lb × 1 Set 6: 40 lb × 1 Set 7: 40 lb × 1 Set 8: 40 lb × 1 Walk out Set 1: 165 lb × 6 Set 2: 165 lb × 6 Set 3: 165 lb × 6 Set 4: 165 lb × 6 https://strong.app.link/FpAHb2jgqA

Took 32 minutes

Heading back I forgot my white coat!!

I'm jealous

Hey cutie!

I thought of something you could do if we're in a situation again where a person is disrespecting me. Instead of asking the person to respect me, you could engage me instead and ignore the person. That would serve to make me feel better in the situation so that my existence/humanity is acknowledged. The best thing to do is to leave if we can, but if not, that's another option.
That guy was gross though. The whole thing made me feel gross and I still feel it when I think back about it.

It left a really bad taste in my mouth.

Yeah.

If him and his staff would have outright told me that they hated me, I could have left easily. Like if they had a "no coloreds allowed" sign, that would make it more obvious. It's worse when prejudice is hidden behind smiles and fake attempts to make a good impression with no actual respect

And the only reason I got those fake attempts to make a good impression is because you were there

I picked up a lot of protein for us from city greens! I got ground beef, chicken legs, turkey sausage, salmon, eggs, and bacon!
Molly is being super affectionate! I feel really bad! Probably gonna give her some dry food!

Hmm, I'll see if she ate her wet food. If she did, I'll reward her. P.S. My kookoo sabzi doesn't look too good, but it is tasty if you want to try some!

Okay! It will be here tomorrow too!!

Watching Hidden Figures tonight if anybody wants to see it!!

(on the big screen in the living room)

Okay!! Like 7:30?

Is 9pm okay?

My mentee from school is coming!

My pussy is juicy tonight

Yay!! Can't wait to see everybody!! ����

Yes!!

Yes honey!!

Lol. I'm in the living room now! You'll have to come home so I can direct your lips to the right spot!

Movie will be over by 10:15!

Sorry 11:15

I'm horny, but I think it's a stress response! Sometimes I get horny when I want to relax instead of do my work. If I masturbate, I'll pass out and sleep for hours

I'm gonna pack up and head to my studio to do case!

Okay. I have to say Molly is doing great with less food! She is a lot more active!

She's interested in stuff more

Maybe that's all I'll give her from now on is just some wet food once daily

Yes, sorry. Had to do my makeup! But now I'm downstairs with my coat and backpack! Molly came too and is hanging out with me. I'm gonna pull up case on my laptop since I cancelled my internet at my studio then I'll head over!

Hot pink lipstick!

Here's one from last night that I didn't send because thought it didn't look very good

Basic starting out
Saturday, February 4, 2017 at 2:17 PM Farmer's Carry Set 1: 40 lb × 1 Set 2: 40 lb × 1 Set 3: 40 lb × 1 Set 4: 40 lb × 1 Set 5: 40 lb × 1 Set 6: 40 lb × 1 Set 7: 40 lb × 1 Set 8: 40 lb × 1 Set 9: 40 lb × 1 Walk out Set 1: 165 lb × 6 Set 2: 165 lb × 6 Set 3: 165 lb × 6 Set 4: 165 lb × 6 https://strong.app.link/VoZ9DGk5uA

My walkouts are getting a little better. I feel I have more control than I did before with the 165 weight. I am gonna do 165 one more time and then up it!

I am feeling love right now

Love you honey

I might be having a post workout high

Definitely high

Okay, you can have kookoo sabzi when you come home

Gf wants lovins

Gf wants lovins

In bed! I was just trying to do some meditations

Oh okay

This did make me a little sad. I kept waking up in the night and wondering where you were

I didn't check my phone though

I assumed you were coming and I'd see you soon until I woke up again and realized it must be morning because it was bright and you still weren't here. That's when I checked and saw your message

But the answer to your question next time if I don't see it, is yes. I always like to see you. I'm kind of sad I didn't get to see you last night. But I hope you

are sleeping well and I'll see you today maybe.

Also I'm not working today.

At least not working for Schnucks.

My mom tells me so many stories about all the lies she tells her friends because she's worried they will feel bad because she is much more comfortable financially and they are struggling. I guess her friends ask questions like, "Is your house paid off?" and she says, "Probably not, Roger doesn't tell me anything". She went grocery shopping and felt bad for her friend to see her buying expensive eggs and she lied and said she was getting them for her neighbor. She is always telling me she's worried about getting "bad eyes" from people who are jealous. It seems like having money when others don't makes people really paranoid.

Anyway, I am a little upset about last night still. It made me wonder if you value it as much as I do, which made me sad. I need you to tell me how you feel.

Anyway, I am a little upset about last night still. It made me wonder if you value it as much as I do, which made me sad. I need you to tell me how you feel.

Value coming home at night to see each other, sleeping together, and waking up next to each other

Okay. Did you read my previous texts?

Can you talk on the phone?

Love you. I'm at Mokabes and they're having a meeting here that Mo and Philip are at!

Also Isaiah is working right now

Oh nice!

What weight am I doing for walkouts? 175?

Only going up by 5lbs?

Okay, that's fine!

Farmer carries are hard today. I'm only halfway through. It's making more of my callous peel off

Sorry baby, I don't have it in me today. It's gonna have to be a mini workout. I must be dehydrated or something.

I'll try again tomorrow

Okay! I'm try to be healthy and hydrate today and tomorrow maybe I can do better!!

The next thing I'm gonna make is butternut squash soup with chicken legs! I saw that we have those squash in the basket that nobody is probably gonna use!

Weird stuff my school does

Lol, they gonna tell me it's for cis men only. I wonder if we have any out trans men at our school

Lmao!!!

I emailed them to ask if I could do it or if it's for men only!

If she responds then I'm gonna ask about trans men!!

Why not!

I like doing that. Gives me some life

I might want to impress the STLCOP ladies too and get $50!

Lol

Awww

I needed that

Phone is dying! I'm at work and it's very slow here

I hope I get to see you tonight and kiss your face

Do you want to do something for Valentine's Day?

Really?? I didn't think you would be into that!

I'm craving sugar

There are Valentine's cupcakes at work

Okay

What should I eat

I want food because I'm stressed

My appetite has been up

Yeah, but you know food tastes better when somebody else makes it. I am kind of tired of the food I made and want something new! I'll prolly buy some nuts. I've been craving cashews since I saw Lara eating some

Is there spaghetti or roast beef still?

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It's okay! You need to eat healthy!

I can have food I don't like, like Molly! lol

Are you coming home tonight?

I'm not feeling my best.

Probably because I need to put more effort into things

I think if I work harder I'll feel better

Okay it's up to you. I'll probably want to go to bed soon

I have 9am class tomorrow

Okay

I guess I'll go upstairs

I hope I can see you tomorrow

Aww! I was just thinking about you!! ���� Good morning honey! I miss you and can't wait to see you today!!

Also, last night and this morning have been your favorite kind of weather

Aww! I love you baby. Today was starting off not too great for me, but your texts cheered me up. Then I came to school and saw Kim and I was worried she is upset at me because I haven't seen her until now, but she wasn't. She gave me a big hug and it made me feel so much better. Now I'm here at therapy waiting for my counselor to get here!

Today is going better. Good session with counselor today. She reminded me part of why I'm always thinking people don't like me is because of the conditional love I received

I'm gonna have lunch soon if you want to have it with me, I can come downtown to that Indian place

Let me know because I'm very hungry from fasting last night and this morning

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(pussy love)

Would anybody be interested in a free makeover tonight? There is a Mary Kay lady named Kiki who wants to come over and give people free skin consultations, makeover, and goody bags. It's all complimentary, but if you like something you can get it!

Lol, that's what I thought. She is very persistent. I first told her that I didn't want it because I prolly wouldn't buy anything. I'm just gonna tell her again that nobody is interested

Hi baby!! Focus on work not facebook

Random guy messaging me about a comment I wrote in PP's protest event

Also, this fucker is still going

Talking about both of them?

Which one were you talking about?

I blocked both.

Rob will probably be pissed and create another account. Might have been better to just keep it so that didn't know I was seeing the messages, but oh well.

If it is not too much, could you please pick up enzymatic cat pee cleaner on your way home? Also, the butternut squash soup I made is really yummy!!

Okay that's fine

I might go get some. I had some, but can't find it

When will you be back? I think you will love my soup

Okay, I just realized I have a ton of studying to do still. I'm sorry baby. So if you don't want to come home tonight I understand. We can plan for Thursday night (I have two exams on Thursday)! That way I'll be able to dedicate more attention to you

But if you want to come home then I am happy to see you, I'll just also need to do work.

Okay sounds good!! ����

Where are you??

Oh gosh

I'm so sorry

I made it to school

It was strange, I checked my phone and it said was in the 60's so I didn't bother with a jacket, but was so cold I could see my breath.
Anyway, I hope you have a great day today and we can have fun tomorrow! Did you want to do lunch at Mr Curry?

Haha, this professor from Texas is talking about his experience with an "evil woman" who was his preceptor on rotation. Kept making a big deal about how evil she was... I wish I could meet her! He seems like he has a Napoleon complex

He literally has memes up and has been lecturing seriously with them, complaining about his experiences with patients

I meant tomorrow, but if you don't want to its okay. I had asked you previously if you wanted to get lunch on Thursday at Mr curry, but I guess you didn't see it! We can go somewhere else...

Can you get in through the small door? Does the button work?

Lol