Hmm that's weird

If that doesn't work, you might try Bekah! I think she likes to lock down the fort!!

My phone weather is wrong

It is snowing outside and I came to school with no coat!!

Oh my gosh, I was looking at the weather in Cupertino!

No wonder 60's felt colder than usual

I'm in a t shirt

Great!! Have a safe trip!

Hey... I was calling because I missed you and wanted to talk to you before I went to bed.

Yeah it rang once and went to voicemail

Nervous this morning

I got burps

Ovulating today

Yes

Took my exam

Felt like it went well, but we'll see

Why???

My professors are so dumb

I need my Daily Dose of misogyny with my lecture on evidenced based medicine

Where would you like to get lunch? I get out of class at noon

If you don't have time today it's okay, we can do another time

Hey baby, I just realized I probably should have waited to hear from you, but I'm almost to lockerdome

Just passed the heater and the police have it roped off again

With the cage

Okay I'm gonna go home and I'll come back when you get out

Egg serves lunch btw

If things are good between us and we think we want to stay together and have a family, I would be open to trying to conceive with you in October of this year. I would be pregnant during rotations and give birth very shortly after graduation in May! The only thing that worries me is that I think people might not want to hire a new mom right after graduation. But maybe they would be okay!!

Where's honey??

Miss you. Come back upstairs

Firstly, I hope you have a good day. Secondly, I want to know whether or not you're coming home. Lastly I don't feel really loved right now

I'm fine

If you come home and want time for yourself just let me know so I won't be thinking we'll hangout

The more I know what to expect the better.

I'm guessing you need more alone time when you're not working

yep, I think that's part of where my frustration was last night is that even though you "wanted" to be spending time with me, you needed time to yourself.
We need more honest and vulnerable communication. Tell me what you need and how I can be supportive.

Also you were upset that I was doing nothing because you want to do nothing but can't. Don't be jealous. I wish I could be like you and be productive and succeed in school. If I could be functioning at a faster level and focus, I would love it. Not that I want to continue discussing through text, but I have a lot of guilt about being lazy so that critique feels sharp when I hear it.
Anyway, in an effort to be more supportive, I'm going to try to refrain from texting you throughout the day since that's probably stressful for you and not quality communication or a good use of my time.

I'm here at Mokabe's and see Jessie talking to Mo! I don't know either of them well enough to say hi though

I know

Oh I added her on facebook a while back

I got stared down by all the white people here when I came in, starting from the porch

You'd think I'm some big imposing figure or something

It'd be funny to try to scare them, but scared white people are dangerous. They're probably packing

If you want to celebrate V-Day together I will be free Thursday night next week

I just wanted to take a second to tell you that I am grateful that I've gotten to know you and spend time with you. I feel that knowing you has enriched my life

If you come home today, I have a small treat for you

Yes!

Possibly!

Oh yes!

From your lovable gf!! ����

Without Lara here to clean up after Rodney, the kitchen is becoming a complete disaster. I don't want to clean it and I think Isaiah doesn't want to either

It's getting really gross in there.

Queer bomb is tonight!

Isaiah did something weird... So I heard a knock on the door and I didn't answer because I was on the toilet. Then he came in and I like flushed the toilet and was like, "Hello!" and he like ran downstairs. And I was like, "Hey did you need something?" and he was like, "No I just wanted to see if Molly was there because I wanted to pet the cat."

It's really weird. I don't think that's really why he was coming up here. Then I heard Rodney tease him downstairs about an excuse.. Reminds me of previous time Rodney came in the room without knocking or anything and just walked right past me and into the bathroom to look for something...

I don't think they'd like it if I just went in their room like that

I also think Rodney cares more what you think and respects your right to private space more than my right. I don't think he would have just done that if it was you here instead of me

Well with both of them, I think they were up for something other than what they said they were there for, but I don't know what. With Isaiah, I think he respects my right to private space in front of me and just didn't know I was here. With Rodney, I don't think he respects it even in front of me. I don't know what I would tell them. I can't just be like, "Hey what were you really doing because I think you're lying"

I don't think it's right. I feel like people shouldn't be messing in other people's rooms when they're not home unless they asked first.

What are you fine with?
Yeah, I think that I have devalued the room since I moved in. People probably respected it more when it was just your room.

Oh okay. Me too, but that's not what's been happening.
Both times this happened I did feel intruded upon and I do want to know what they really are coming up here for

I'm gonna start going in their room

And make up dumb excuses for it

They would be so pissed. Such a double standard that as a woman I have nothing of my own and everything I have is to be shared with everybody

Not that I don't want to be generous but I want my respect and my right to private and personal space

Yeah. I mean it's not going to be fun to confront this. I can't bring up the thing with Rodney because it happened a long time ago. I can ask Isaiah why he came into my room again and see if he says something other than what he said this time which was he wanted to pet the cat. But most likely he will say the same thing. So the only thing I can do is say I would appreciate if people don't come in my room when I'm not home unless asking me first.

Or I could say don't come in my room if the door is closed

I leave the door open when I'm not home so Molly can roam

Or I could say, "Fuck everybody! I'm tired of your shit and I don't want to be diplomatic. And fuck you for leaving this mess in the sink and then going on a hike and a party with no plan to clean up your crap!"

I think that would be much better

I'm not going to ask Isaiah again to give him a chance to be honest. I'll just talk to people in person and say that I don't want people going in my room without asking and that's it.

If they do it again I'll be pissed

Okay, sorry I'm venting.

I sent Isaiah a diplomatic text. It's probably too nice but I was worried they'd think I'm mean if I sent something more serious.
"Hey! I hope you guys have a good time today with your hike and party! I know previously I said come up and see Molly anytime so I could understand why you would come up. I just wanted to let you know that usually when my door is closed it means I'm home because I leave the door open when I'm not home so Molly can roam. It's not a huge deal, but in general I'd like for people ask if they can come into my room before they go in it."

I'm still pissed though because I'm almost 100% certain that he lied to me about why he went in my room. Otherwise he wouldn't have ran down the stairs when I said "hello". Also I don't think he cares for Molly that much to go up there for her

I'm just pretending to believe how lie because if I confront it he'll just tell me the same thing, so I don't see the point

I know

I just hate it. I wanna trust the people I live with, but it's hard when they're going into my room without asking and lying about the reason

I'm gonna just focus on therapeutics. I got off work early so I could study

I don't know the reason, but I know it wasn't what he said it was

And I know it's sketch because he ran so fast

True

I still don't believe he came up for the cat

I feel very tired. Don't know how I'm gonna do my work... I'm falling apart

I need to exercise

Thanks baby. This helped!

I want to tell everybody "fuck you!"

Yeah I been studying. Gonna go home and do more...

Come love me! ����

Where are you???

Where are you???

I have garlic breath, just warning you! My cauli mash is strong!!

Okay take your time

When is the women party?

Woohoo!!!

Coming home??

I feel like we're going to have to bring up dishes again at the next house meeting. ��

I am having diarrhea

Can I sex you??

����

I'm getting bored with my workout

I want more range of motion

I would love to swim

Basic starting out
Sunday, February 12, 2017 at 12:56 PM Farmer's Carry Set 1: 40 lb × 1 Set 2: 40 lb × 1 Walk out Set 1: 165 lb × 6 Set 2: 165 lb × 6 Set 3: 165 lb × 6 Set 4: 165 lb × 6 https://strong.app.link/KxCW9rhfIA

I like the walkouts better because they feel energizing

lol I'm at Cafe Ventana!

They have amazing and cheap omelettes here

Save it for me!

Phone dying but you can email me!

Somebody cleaned the kitchen beautifully and even bleached the sink

The floors too

I don't know who did it

I finished off the few things that were left to make it more clean. Hopefully it will stay nice for Lara!

When you coming home?

I am, but I miss you

I saw April today!!

Come see me and do work with me?

I will brush my teeth so I'm not so stinky since I had the cauliflower again

The salmon I got us is tasty! I only had one filet thawed so I just ate it, but I'll make an extra for you next time if you are interested in it!

Come give me lovings and then I'll study more!

Lol, no I just thought was cute. I can't propose until I think you would say yes!

I saw some cute pics of women in wedding dresses with leather jackets! I was thinking if we get married we would probably do some kind of non-traditional dress!

Rodney went ahead and put his dirty dishes in the clean sink again instead of putting them away. Didn't even bother to soak them or anything. It just frustrates me, but I'm not gonna worry about it until the house meeting

Molly loves this chair!!

I like it when I can feel like I did something good by buying things!

Hey baby, I don't know what time you're coming home, but I left some meat and veggies out to thaw if you want to throw them together! If not, I will make it when I get back from work!

Okay that's fine! I was just letting you know in case you wanted some healthy food for dinner, since it would be easy to make! But I'll make it when I get back!

I yelled at my boss at work...

I feel bad because I am bigger so I feel like I shouldn't yell because it could scare smaller people

What is a name of a healthy sugar substitute?

Okay, I'm buying some!!

I have chocolate covered strawberries!

I can save some for you if want!

I would normally but I know last time you didn't want the dessert I got

Okay

There is food here if you want it

I left it out because it's still too warm for the fridge

I'm going to bed

So sleepy

I love you

I'm sorry if I'm not doing good at being gf

Hopefully we can have more time later this week

Shared a vCard

When I go to my contact info, you should see my location

It should update where I'm going

Did you go to my profile in your contacts?

Then click "info"

Shared a vCard

Shared a vCard

Shared a vCard

I'm also sharing my location with Elika and my mom

Shared a vCard

Since I'm giving you contacts for my family I thought I'd send my dad too

We miss you Lara! Hope you have a nice trip home!! ����

Hey baby! I forgot today is Valentine's! So, just know that today I love you (similar to other days), and Thursday maybe we can go dancing to celebrate!

Okay. You have my availability, so I'll let you plan something

I'm not working this weekend

Just met this guy at a coffee shop. I was actually talking to Robyn (his wife), but he gave me his card.

Lin called me and left a voicemail saying she is out of Art House due to things not working with Vega

Due to Lin or Vega?

She said she couldn't come to brunch due to it (I had invited her when we were there), but that she would still like to be friends

I like her, but I don't know if I can handle her intensity

She reminds me of my old friend Guianna who I lost touch with. She had a similar bright and charismatic spirit and became an artist and had lots of pain. Random thought but I remember she told me her bf (before she became lesbian) used to ask her to wash up before he went down on her and it made her feel like she was really gross

I am not well. I feel like if anybody wants to start something with me I'm ready for it

I was walking in shorts and I kept feeling like there was something on my legs, like a spider web or something, but I couldn't find anything. I just realized its the feeling of air moving through my leg hairs. It's a new sensation for me as I've never had hair this long before

It's so funny to me how aggressive other people are and how they don't expect me to be aggressive back to them

I'm probably going to chop off my hair soon. It's feeling like a burden again

Can you talk on the phone for a sec?

I want to start wrapping my hair sometimes, but I'm worried it could be seen as cultural appropriation. It is a popular thing in parts of Africa, but also done in many other parts of the world. I guess it would depend on the style of wrap I do... I could see if I can find ones that are just Middle Eastern, but tbh I really like some of the African ones

I like this kind!

Yeah, I thought about that too. It will enhance my ethnic factor which will take away more privilege

Thats kind of funny that people don't realize there are lots of black muslims too. I was talking about it with Diana last night and told her it could make me more of a target.

I don't think they would let me wear it at work... and for me it wouldn't be for religious reasons, so I couldn't back it up that way..

I'm more interested in it as a way to protect my hair as it is growing and condition it as well as just liking the style and liking that it makes me feel like I'm representing a bit

I think I remember when I was first hired it said in the dress code: "no wild ethnic hairstyles" or something like that

I could try it and see what they tell me

I'll wear a simple pink silk scarf and tie it in the back (a more acceptable Middle Eastern style) and see what happens...

It's kind of scary. I work in southern Missouri and they were already leary of me when I first came in and said I was hired... They didn't believe me and asked me to sit on the bench while they went back to verify it

I guess Southern St Louis, not Southern Missouri, but I can't imagine they're any better

Yeah. The hair wrap would be seen as unprofessional

Well that sucked

Problem is therapeutic exams are all memorization and that takes more work. It's okay though. Only two more T4 tests and a final exam left

Oscar's party February 26th

Goals for today: exercise and take a bubble bath

(my special bath bombs I ordered should be here today)

Remember to workout today so you feel better and are healthier and can be your best self

8 days till my period, hopefully I get my new pads in time!

I'm doing my workout!

I know you didn't want me to lower the weight, but I know my body better and I needed to feel good today by getting the right amount of stimulation. Also, by lowering the weight I was able to have more control of my movement and really isolate my lower traps. And I realized that previously I was protecting my back when I walked because I wasn't strong enough for the weight, but with the lower weight I could have my spine in a better alignment.

Basic starting out
Thursday, February 16, 2017 at 12:32 PM Farmer's Carry Set 1: 40 lb × 1 Set 2: 30 lb × 1 Set 3: 30 lb × 1 Set 4: 30 lb × 1 Set 5: 30 lb × 1 Set 6: 30 lb × 1 Set 7: 30 lb × 1 Set 8: 30 lb × 1 Set 9: 30 lb × 1 Set 10: 30 lb × 1 Walk out Set 1: 170 lb × 6 Set 2: 170 lb × 6 Set 3: 170 lb × 6 Set 4: 170 lb × 6 https://strong.app.link/JyRPjxrROA

Thanks! I am going to the dentist now!

All done and no cavities!!

He was nice enough. Very brief and to the point and then left and let the hygienist do her job! Not much going on with me except that I need to floss. Which reminds me, the hygienist recommended a water pick as an easier way to floss. There's a kind that hooks up to the shower, so I am probably going to get that and you can use it too! It comes with two different heads!

Check out the sunset

Coming home??

Coming home??