I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 18, 2016 10:06:46:

It's cool. Enjoy your day. Stay off your phone and Internet if you can and reach out when you're ready to talk again. Best.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 18, 2016 11:23:23:

Roger had an MRI and his fibrosis is gone!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 18, 2016 20:47:04:

I wrote about 5 pages of self reflection that I hope to share with you tomorrow.
Tomorrow I am taking Molly to the groomers at 9:30am. It could take them 3-4 hrs, so I won't be staying there. Then I have a meeting with the mentor program at 12:30 at which I will be giving a short presentation on my ideas for the upcoming year. I could potentially meet with you between 10:30-noon, or I can meet you after my meeting, around 1pm. After my meeting, my schedule is completely free!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 18, 2016 20:48:27:

Also, thank you for being supportive and giving me the time I need to focus and reflect.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 18, 2016 20:49:13:

Please let me know when you'd like to meet me tomorrow, so that I can plan accordingly.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 18, 2016 21:49:53:

Let's do after your meeting. I need to get some work done.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 18, 2016 22:12:27:

Okay! Have a goodnight and I will see you tomorrow!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 08:36:58:

Good morning! I hope you slept well! You can come to my place to meet me around 1pm or whenever you get done with work and we can go to your place to sleep so that I can leave my car there!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 08:37:59:

K. Makes the most sense for you to come here if you're leaving your car here.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 08:39:16:

That's fine. It will be later than 1pm then because I will need to pack when I get back from my meeting!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 08:40:03:

OK. We can figure it out.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 08:42:14:

I'll text you an update when I get back from my meeting! ��

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 08:42:26:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 15:13:13:

I got home just a little bit ago! Updated ETA is looking more like 6:00pm!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 15:13:32:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 15:32:46:

I'm all for making fun of Melania Trump's (speech writer's) plagiarism , but I can't help but feel that the level people are taking it to is due to misogyny and that she's an "attractive" woman and therefore dumb. People love a chance to trash a prominent woman.
I watched the comparison and thought it was funny, but I feel a little bad about it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 15:33:33:

I didn't watch it for that reason. I'm at/over capacity right now.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 16:21:04:

Should I eat before I come to your place?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 16:21:32:

It doesn't matter really.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 16:23:01:

Okay, I'll eat before I come

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 16:23:55:

Also I'm bringing you the food that is in my fridge!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 16:24:43:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 18:07:52:

On my way! I have to stop at the library to return my books and then coming over!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 18:08:05:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 19, 2016 18:32:38:

Be there in 15 minutes!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 19, 2016 18:33:01:

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 06:49:05:

I'm sorry for being rude. That wasn't very nice of me.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 06:53:48:

I appreciate that and accept your apology! I'm on my way to my gate!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 06:54:05:

Have a good trip.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 07:06:18:

Thank you! I don't know how much is in my head since I'm expecting it, but person who looked at my idea took extra long and I just imagine him thinking "You don't look like an Adriane Norman"!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 07:06:31:

ID**

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 07:07:55:

Anyway ,made it to my gate!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 07:08:00:

Haha

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 07:08:14:

Alright

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 07:08:38:

About to snuggle back into bed and I wish you were here.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 11:46:43:

I am here in Florida!!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 11:46:52:

I got approved for the apartment!!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 11:48:59:

Boo on the first :-p yay on the second one.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 15:58:11:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 15:59:24:

Get in ma belly!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 20, 2016 18:52:38:

��

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 20, 2016 19:48:54:

Hey there!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 11:31:18:

Lifting today is really hard. I'm tired from when you slept over. Worth it though! I hope Florida is treating you well.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 11:35:16:

Yay! I'm glad you're lifting! I want to get a gym membership while I'm here! Florida is treating me great! Bought some pure matcha, and my mom made a tomato, radish, and parsley salad last night. I feel so good here because everything is clean and modern and I have lots of great food! Also it's storming because it storms every afternoon in Florida in the summer!! I love it!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 11:36:33:

Awesome.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 11:38:31:

I might get a hair cut! I have been wanting to grow my hair long, but it takes a long time and not sure my hair ever looks great long anyway!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 11:39:27:

I look good with a lob or bob! So I'll prolly do something like that! Maybe change the color too!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 11:39:56:

Just for the record, I love playing with your hair. Your hair is wonderful.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 11:41:15:

Thanks love!! Having you play with my hair is one of my favorite sensations! ��
I feel like a bob is chic and it really compliments my face, so that's what I'll probably do!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 16:54:51:

Just protested. We met over at the old courthouse, not planning to go in or anything. They had closed it because they were scared of us, haha. So funny.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 18:27:32:

That is funny! How was the protest?

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 18:29:41:

I'm just hanging out at home!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 18:33:11:

It was hot as hell. We feed the homeless. Most of Radix was there.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 18:36:23:

Are you getting more clarity on the rotation?

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 18:38:59:

That's good!
Not a whole lot! All I know is I work Monday-Friday 8:30-4:30pm. I guess I'll learn more on Monday. I also think I'm going to be working in respiratory therapy, because I was told to buy gray scrubs and go get a respiratory mask fitting!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 19:26:34:

Hey! Did you see if my car got a ticket on your street? I think that they sweep every third Thursday on your street!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 19:37:07:

You're good. No ticket.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 21, 2016 20:09:57:

Was it parked on the side that should have got a ticket though? Cuz sometimes they mail them!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 21, 2016 20:11:45:

Dunno

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 08:20:14:

Good morning! Hope you slept well!
I wanted to tell you that I think I'm holding onto the comment you made on the way to the airport. It stung me. Here is the raw emotion: I think part of the reason was because it wasn't that you were in a rage when you said that. It seemed cold, callous, and intentional. It was like you were telling me, "This is how I'm going to talk to you." And I don't think you expected me to challenge it. You expected me to shrink down and feel bad about it and accept that that's how I'm treated.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 08:22:10:

Hm. Didn't come from that place. It came more from feeling judged. I didn't like that you felt you could say that I want being nice to my mom when you're not the one that has lived a life with my relationship with her.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 08:35:10:

I appreciate you telling me how you're feeling. The thing is, you struck a nerve, and I knew that I responded too strongly. I was glad that you and I talked about it and I apologized. Still, there was a tone of judgement in your statement. It was a passive aggressive thing. I wish that you'd just said that you're concerned with how I treat my mom rather than just implying that I don't treat her well.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 09:02:04:

Why do you think that nerve is there? I'm sure it existed before you met me.
It wasn't passive aggressive. It was a statement, "Be nice to your mom." And I wasn't even in a serious context. It was a story about your mom being worried about missing the sign for the airport. It was more like a, "Aww, your poor mom." kind of thing. Sorry, can't talk on the phone right now!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 09:03:53:

The nerve is there because I'm often unhappy with my relationship with my mom.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 09:04:43:

But, right or wrong, I do perceive a judgement from you about how I treat my mom. There have been several other statements about it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 09:05:29:

I think that part of the reason it is especially troubling is that part of me thinks that you feel I'll treat you the way that I treat my mom and that I'm not nice to my mom.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 09:07:21:

I obviously overreacted and I don't want you silenced, and I still want you to understand why, especially when I'm tired, I may not have had much grace around that. I will always take the time to apologize and hear you out though, even if that isn't my first reaction.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 09:11:48:

I see what you mean! Hold on I'm getting in the shower!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 09:41:31:

I think in general moms don't get appreciated as much as they should, especially single moms. They are human and have many flaws, but they still care, and unlike the dads, they stick around and do the best they can.
That's my viewpoint so I tend to try to defend moms since I think people are overly critical and underappreciative moms and don't care at all about dads because there's no expectation for them. I have been guilty of this. I saw my mom for what she wasn't rather than what she was and she did do a lot for me. I'm sorry I touched on a sore spot for you and I'll try to be more sensitive in discussions pertaining to your mom. It's true that people learn about relationships first from their parents and tend to repeat observed interactions. But people can also learn and groove new pathways!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 09:43:15:

My mom is not honest. It breaks my heart, but there is no way to have a healthy relationship without honesty.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 09:45:15:

Yeah, that's a difficult situation!! ��

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 10:05:11:

I feel better after talking to you about it. Glad I brought it up!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 10:05:40:

As am I. I don't want you to feel silenced!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 10:31:24:

Vulture in our backyard!

A video

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 10:32:43:

A video

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 14:14:14:

I'm going to Publix. I love being able to go to the grocery store without worrying about money!! Life is so much better when you know you have enough money to eat and pay your bills!!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 14:27:43:

Why do you not have to worry now?

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 14:28:30:

Roger gave me his card, so I can just charge it to his account!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 14:28:59:

I'm buying stuff for everybody too, not just me!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 14:29:04:

Ah, got it.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:16:30:

Just ordered all the stuff for my new place!!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:16:44:

It's getting shipped to Ellsworth!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 17:16:50:

Exciting!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:30:33:

It's a lot of stuff! I hope it looks good! Hard to tell when looking online!!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 17:30:54:

Yeah.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:59:19:

Deleted my facebook

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:59:24:

I feel better already

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 17:59:59:

I'm not on bumble or tinder anymore so I don't need it for that. I'm not really using it for events and it makes me unhappy

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 18:00:10:

So got rid of it and feels like life is better!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 18:00:16:

Yeah. Wise move.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 18:00:23:

Yep

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 20:57:05:

Ugh, doesn't take long being home for my mom to start crossing my boundaries. She literally thinks that she can control me like a puppet and get angry if I don't anticipate what she wants me to do or if I choose something different. She yelled at me and called me stupid and I lost my cool. I'm so pissed. I can't handle this shit. I hate feeling like I still have to be nice for financial reasons. I really want her financial support.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 20:59:13:

What did I do to get yelled at and called names? I answered a phone call from my grandpa while she was gone. She's such a bitch sometimes. So tired of this.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:03:20:

If money wasn't an issue I would leave and stay at a hotel or airbnb. But that's really expensive for 3 weeks. This is part of why I can't wait to have a career and my own money so I don't have to feel like I'm living under someone's thumb.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:08:00:

She's doing to you what Roger does to her.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:08:08:

It's really sad.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:11:32:

I wish that I were there with you. I'd give you a hug. Call me if you want. I tried calling a bit ago. I love you.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:11:33:

Roger does not try to make her into a puppet, disrespect her autonomy, and call her names because he's upset she didn't do what he wanted.
It's completely different and she did this and worse before she met Roger. The only similarity and she has access to money I need and Roger has access to money she needs.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:11:49:

Oh I didn't see that you called

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:13:19:

She's been abusive since I was born

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:13:53:

It's so hard for me because I feel like I love her and I need her financially but she's abusive

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:14:13:

You're really coming alive and liberated. It is inspiring!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:14:27:

It is hard to see these things and face them.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:15:59:

Nah. It's not inspiring to me. I knew she was abusive long ago when I called children's services. I don't feel like I'm being liberated. I feel like I'm tired of having to say that I don't deserve this. I feel like I hope I still believe deep down I don't deserve it

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:16:26:

You don't.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:18:10:

I have so much anger. I really wanted to hit my mom. I wanted to so badly because I'm so angry. I've never done that and I wouldn't even though she has hit me. But I still have this anger

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:19:17:

It's healthy to acknowledge it. And, honestly, it is understandable to feel that way.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:23:54:

Is there anything that I can do to help?

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:26:23:

The sad thing is the only thing she respects is dominance. I can and have pleadedwith her excessively and she never listens to me. When I get upset she gaslights me and acts like I'm overreacting. If a raise my voice and try to intimidate her she will stop what she's doing temporarily. But then I'm basically a monster. I have done that in the past, but I don't want to do that again. So basically the best thing for me to do is run away.
Before when I would sense it coming I would run to my room and lock the door and she would just keep banging and screaming through the door. Basically my best option is to run.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:27:31:

I guess it's not as serious now that I'm older but I still get upset

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:28:31:

Yeah. Well, I've got your back.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:29:14:

She has calmed down some in her older age and since she met Roger. But she still crosses my boundaries with disregard and refuses to hear me

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:29:35:

Roger protects me when she loses and shit and tries to be abusive to me

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:29:48:

Thanks. I'm glad you have my back!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:33:41:

I want to be close to my mom but it's hard to be close to someone who is variably abusive. I hate that one day she's nice and I feel like I have a decent relationship with her and the next day she decides that I need to be treated like shit. The inconsistency hurts worse. I rather she just always be abusive so I don't fall into the trap.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:34:06:

Yeah

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:35:43:

The next thing is distance. I can be close to her, but not live with her. That way if she crosses the line all I have to do is hangup the phone. So easy to end the problem right away.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:35:48:

best*

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:36:28:

Yeah ...

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:39:41:

Diana's mom recently slapped her in the face. Diana was so upset. She's 26. Not that it's okay at any age, but you hope that you get more respect as an adult.
Last time I visited Florida, my mom raised her hand as a threat to hit me and I lost it. I cannot handle even that. I was so furious with her. I told her if she even talks about hitting me that I would never be in her life again. Even then it was hard to get her to understand.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:41:49:

I'm just tired of abuse. I'm tired of having to justify why it's wrong and I don't deserve it. I hate the person I become when I get angry at my mom. It really brings out the worst in me.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:45:13:

I guess part of the reason I'm upset is because how it happened this time. I saw a flare of the wild look in her eye that she used to get before attacking me. Also I was laying on the couch and she was hovering over me yelling at me. It reminded me of when I was young and she she pushed me down on the couch and came at me.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:45:36:

She didn't attack me, but she might as well have.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:45:51:

I just feel like I'm so fragile and useless

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:46:06:

Sorry I sent you a million texts

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:46:10:

Going to bed now

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:53:42:

Sorry. I just saw this.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:54:04:

Don't even worry about sending texts. I'm here for you.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:56:08:

How many seconds chances can I give? I don't want to cut my mom out of my life but I also don't think it's healthy for me to be around her to much. I told her today that I'm not talking to her until she apologizes. She'll probably apologize tomorrow, but what's the point. She will do it again. Because she feels that she owns me.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 21:56:47:

Yeah.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 21:58:57:

I feel bad that she's ruining our relationship. Anyway, it's one month. I'll be busy with work starting on Monday.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 22:03:08:

What are you doing right now?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 22:04:31:

Freedom flix with Hands Up United

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 22:04:37:

About to go home.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 22:08:15:

That's nice! I hope you had a good time and enjoyed the movie

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 22:08:22:

Sorry to dump on you!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 22, 2016 22:08:39:

I should have just wrote in my notepad

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 22:12:48:

I'm always an ear for you!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 22, 2016 22:36:59:

Are you asleep? I just got home if you want to talk.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 09:08:14:

Thanks! Sorry I fell asleep last night!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 09:09:14:

Well, I'm here if you need. Just worked out. Getting ready for books and breakfast now.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 09:15:03:

Okay I'm on my way to get my hair done and then going shopping with my mom. Hopefully doesn't go too badly!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 11:18:04:

Got my hair cut!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 11:36:19:

Roger is in a much better mood this time than when you were here because now he knows he doesn't have fibrosis!!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 13:46:27:

That's good

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 18:37:13:

You would have really enjoyed the womanist discussion.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 18:47:14:

How was it? What did you discuss?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:24:25:

So many things ... One of the things that we talked about was money in relationships.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:25:00:

Oh gosh

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:26:14:

That's stressful

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:26:42:

It was a really good conversation! Very empowering.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:27:04:

You'll have to give me the highlights later!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:29:35:

Life is so much better when you have your own money. I am waiting. Two more years and I will have some freedom.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:37:00:

I want you to always hold me accountable to but take your freedom.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:41:28:

You mean partake?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:42:26:

but = not

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:42:34:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:43:24:

That sounds like a shitty responsibility

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:43:43:

I prefer you hold yourself accountable

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:43:51:

I do that too.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:44:22:

What I mean is that if you me missing something that I'm doing, let me know.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:44:58:

I think there was a typo in that. I don't understand it

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:48:12:

I don't want you to tell me what to do. You hold yourself accountable and I worry about me. I think that's fair.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:53:59:

Sorry I missed your call

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:54:18:

Watching a movie with my mom and Roger but I'll call you tonight before I go to bed if you're free!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:54:39:

K. Not sure if I will be, but hopefully!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 19:55:03:

What are you up to?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:55:38:

We have food over for dinner

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 19:55:58:

*folks

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 20:21:50:

I got a bunch of simple tight T-shirts kind of like the ones you have, but in different colors! They're cute. I got them in juniors because they don't make tight T-shirts for women, only loose ones!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 21:17:51:

Cool

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 22:02:52:

Hey honey! I'm really tired tonight, but will call in the morning to catch up!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 23, 2016 22:03:11:

K. Sleep well.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 23, 2016 22:03:32:

You too!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:14:38:

I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't stop drinking!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:14:47:

I keep drinking water and I still feel thirsty

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:15:01:

My pee has been completely clear though

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:15:27:

I don't think I ever drank this much before

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:17:05:

It takes a bit fit your buddy to realize that you're not thirsty, but if I had to guess, I'd suggest that you might want to get more veggies. They have electrolytes.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:18:42:

I've been this way since for a couple days. I have been eating so many veggies since I been home! The other night we had turnips for dinner. I been eating salads, I had peas last night.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:19:11:

I hope I'm not getting diabetes insipidus!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:19:38:

I had beets too!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:25:14:

I just checked my blood sugar and it's 103!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:26:09:

I just had matcha with some sugar! I don't think it would make my sugar that high though!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:26:18:

I guess there was milk too

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:28:08:

I'm dying

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:28:29:

I hope you have prepared some words to say at my service

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:28:57:

103 isn't that bad

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:29:46:

Adriane was a decent person. She liked her matcha with almond milk and a little sugar. Unfortunately that's where she doomed herself to an untimely death from complications from diabetes!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:30:43:

She would like to warn future generations about the dangers of matcha with almond milk and sugar!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:31:15:

You don't have to meet the same fate that Adriane did. Just say no to matcha!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:35:49:

I know it's just outside the normal range for fasting and I wasn't fasting. So I probably won't die from diabetes this year.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:36:08:

50/50 chance

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:46:46:

I sent you snaps

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:47:34:

In the middle of pushing the sled

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:49:14:

I'm raining from sweat.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:49:37:

Good job!! Push it!!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 09:50:03:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 09:50:53:

Hehe! You don't look happy!!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 10:00:51:

You're probably right about the electrolytes! I been having diarrhea!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 10:01:07:

I always get diarrhea when I come home from the emotions!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 10:02:07:

It was dark green, I'm guessing from all the matcha!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 13:45:18:

I have been feeling nauseous! I hope I'm not pregnant!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 14:03:56:

My mom was telling me how it was when she came here and went to school. She couldn't understand want they were saying to write notes as the professor spoke. So she would borrow another woman's notes, copy them and then write down translations with her Farsi-English dictionary.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 14:09:56:

I probably should have taken a plan b after you came in me when I was fertile. Hopefully not pregnant.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 14:55:21:

Whether or not you're pregnant, I should have been proactive as asked where you were in your cycle. I also should have asked what you were comfortable with. Whatever the consequences are, I will do whatever I can to share them completely. You're not alone.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:12:21:

Well if I'm pregnant, which I hope I'm not, I will have to make an appointment to kill it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 15:13:32:

I know. I'm just saying, whatever you need, I'm here.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:14:46:

I'm supposed to get my period in one week! If my cycle goes longer than 38 days I'll take a pregnancy test. The longest cycle I've had is 38.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:17:13:

Today is day 27

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:21:53:

If I'm pregnant, which I might not be, I'd like you to pay for my abortion. As you know I don't have an income and I would not like to ask my mom for money for an abortion, as there's a stigma attached to it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 15:22:17:

Yup.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:30:36:

Okay, thanks for being understanding!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 15:34:11:

I think I have some boswellia, which is a natural abortifacient herb. I might take it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 15:41:14:

Be careful!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 16:01:35:

Not sure if we have it. I'm not going to do anything unless I'm late.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 16:02:10:

Could be that I just haven't been feeling well...

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 18:07:12:

In all likeliness, you are not pregnant.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 18:08:38:

I went canvassing today. It was hot as fuck.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:11:56:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:11:58:

Back when I was skinny!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:12:17:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:13:20:

That sounds like fun!! I liked canvassing!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:16:24:

I got my period while canvassing in Florida summer, and it was so bad we had to stop and I asked a random person if I could stay in his house while I waited to get picked up. I first asked for pain medicine but he didn't have any. So I just pooped a lot in his toilet and tried to not think about pain. He had some Christian preaching on TV!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:19:09:

I feel like I looked so much better when I was skinnier, but I don't feel like dieting. Hopefully if I exercise I'll look better.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:29:51:

Don't judge me

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:30:03:

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:38:48:

Fatemeh and Shamir

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 19:46:18:

Elika and I!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 21:02:45:

Hey, just got back from dinner.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 21:30:13:

How was your dinner?

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 24, 2016 23:32:12:

I know it was a tough conversation, but I hope you're okay and sleep well. We can talk more tomorrow!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 24, 2016 23:32:34:

K. Sleep well.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 25, 2016 05:11:16:

We probably shouldn't have had that conversation last night. We can wait to talk about it in person or we can talk more over the phone today.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 25, 2016 06:47:20:

I feel uneasy. Can you let me know that you're okay?

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 25, 2016 08:00:22:

I don't feel very good, honestly, but I'll be alright and you will too. I'm not sure what to say. I didn't want to have the conversation. You pushed it. We had it, and now I feel like you see me as a rapist, so I dunno what to say. It is shitty. I'm annoyed because I let this happen. I feel gross. Things will work out for the best whatever that means.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 25, 2016 08:24:51:

Thanks for checking in. It means a lot. I do appreciate that. We'll figure it out.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 25, 2016 16:12:47:

On my way home from day1

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 25, 2016 16:13:17:

Congrats!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 17:45:49:

Sorry I didn't have a whole lot to tell you!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 26, 2016 17:46:45:

Likewise. I'm still unclear where we stand given our previous conversation.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:20:

Yeah it was confusing. Not sure what we should do about it

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:32:

I don't think I have the energy to tackle it right now.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:32:

I only have 104 hours left of rotation

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:33:

Whatever we talk about or decide is good for both of us will be fine. I don't doubt everything will be good!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:33:

Somebody just asked me to be their partner for IPPE this Fall. That makes me happy.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:00:33:

I realize I've been pretty negative recently. Want to try to focus on good things so I have good things to talk about and feel like life is decent.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:05:51:

If you want to talk about it, we can. Let me know. I prefer Friday or Saturday night!

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:08:37:

I talked about you today to Ryan. He is body building and trying to get to 200. Right now he's around 170. So I mentioned that that was your goal also!

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 26, 2016 18:12:40:

I guess that I just need to know whether you want to be with me. Because with how I hear that you see me and what I'm feeling from you, I don't see why you haven't broken up with me.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 26, 2016 18:15:09:

You don't tell me that you love me either, but I notice, and think there is something to it.

I sent the following to Adriane on Jul 26, 2016 18:16:23:

I'll work through it with you and we can talk about it later, but I need to know that you're committed to that.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:44:57:

Just saw these now.
I have been afraid to use those words since you told me that they don't matter to you and only actions do and that you thought that those words were lies. I'm a little afraid of our relationship right now. I don't want it to bring out the worst in us. I feel like I'm not bringing out your best. I know neither of us want to hurt each other or be in something unhealthy. I want to be part of your life and be close to you. I think I want to be with you, but I am scared.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 18:52:02:

I don't want you to feel abandoned. I'm here with you. We need to talk about things.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 19:02:42:

Everybody loves you and seems like you are a great friend and have been a great lover to many people. For the most part, you've been good to me too, but things seem to be different for some reason. I think I bring out poorer qualities in you.
I admire you in many different ways and think you're a great person. At the same time, I don't think you've been quite as good to me as you have been to other women you've dated, and I'm not sure why that is.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 19:05:47:

I have struggled to feel that you respect me. The time I felt most respected was when you honored what I had said previously that I didn't want to have penetrative sex. Unfortunately, later you used that instance to criticize my character and took away the happiness I felt from it because I realized you were judging me.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 19:06:34:

Anyway we should probably talk over the phone, rather than text. But I do love you and want to be in your life.

Adriane sent the following to me on Jul 26, 2016 19:20:50:

And not to make everything about you, I don't think I have treated you as well as I should have either. Basically, I don't think we've been treating each other right.