I texted Robyn to ask for some ideas to ground myself. I used to be a really grounded and rooted person. People said I had my head on straight. But recently I'm more of a mess. I need to re-root

New roots

I feel like the person who took the red pill and is struggling to make it

No

Sorry took me a sec, I'm in the shower

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How is your back?

I miss you more

How is your plant?

I would like some affection

Are we going to have sex?

Sorry you didn't get much sleep. Was it because of me?
I meant would you like to?

Basically I wanted to know your interest in it

I wanted to know if you were interested in it or not

Does that upset you?

Yeah I think it'd be nice to reconnect with you

What about you?

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Ohh, well keep in mind my terrible state of mind that I've had and that I tend to think that no one will love me when I'm sucky

But actually I'm feeling a lot better today

I made up my mind to feel better

(Not saying this to make you feel like you have to love me in any way. You don't have to and I'll be fine)

Hmm okay, I'll try to remember that your feelings for me are not flimsy. I'm really looking forward to being intimate with you.

Yes baby

I'll help you out

I will clean our room. That will help a lot

Sometimes you need a space with the right energy

A clean room is energizing

I'll make you some healthy food

And I'll workout with you when you're up for it

I know I haven't been in the best environment, but I've had nothing expected of me for a bit, so I can come back and feel refreshed

Yeah baby

Also, it helps me too

I need to feel like I can help somebody

Lmao!

That sounds nice too

I'm going to make our room into a spiritual sanctuary

Slowly of course. It needs a lot of work, but I'll have two weeks with lots of free time!

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If you order the new bed frame and mattress I will put it together!

I can paint the walls and get decorations. I want it to have a grounded and warm feeling!

If you want me to be in charge of all of it, you can just give me your card information and I can order everything too!

Okay, we can do that! Let me know what you feel like you can afford and I'll make the most of the budget!

We are watching a movie about a friendship between women who helped their husbands climb the corporate ladders and then were replaced by younger women and how they get revenge on their ex husbands

It's an older movie with Bette Middler!

A few famous actresses are in this

Diana is not that big, she's probably considered thin by many people's standard

But she is upset about her body and gonna wear a shirt and shorts over her swimsuit

I told her that whatever makes her comfortable, because I wasn't sure why she brought it up to me

But actually I wish she would not be ashamed of her body

She is really beautiful no matter what size

But I know it's about how she feels not how anybody else feels

I would like to suggest to her that she not cover up, but I feel it's not my place

I see Truman Show as a metaphor for becoming a radical person in cishet white supremacist patriarchy. It matches in the way that everybody is conditioned to gaslight you. The only difference is that the regular people don't know they're doing it, unlike the actors in the show.

You could apply the movie so many different ways

How people value entertainment over life

If people didn't watch the show they could have freed him

But honestly, I like that the movie is uplifting and that he leaves, but I don't think it's realistic

In real life, I don't think a person could be told that their whole life is a lie and then accept it and survive and decide to leave

I think they would lose it completely

If they gave him more psychological damage it would be more believable. Also he needed more support. He needed Sylvia to let him know she still exists

Then maybe he could get free

I think they underestimated attachment to reality

Reminds me of the Stanley Milgram experiments too

There's just so many applications

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Missing you, cutie!! ����

Hehe!! Just saw these!!

Can't wait to see you baby!!!

I'm on my way to you!!

Rob is requesting to add me on facebook

I'm here!!!!

Yes!!

Come get the girlfriend!!

You not here??

I'm girlfriend!

I like girlfriend

Whichever!!

If not I'll have to find you!

Hey my love!! I hope you have a great day today!! I hope you weren't upset that I left! You seemed really sleepy and I was antsy, so I wanted to let you get your rest! I love you and look forward to seeing you when you come home!

Should I get omega 3 capsules or liquid?

I'm at whole foods because Laura didn't want to go to Brentwood!

Is this an okay price?

Is this one better? Costs about twice as much!

I noted it! Pharmacy makes me pay attention to that stuff

Okay, I'll do trader Joe's!

GF taking a nap

Come home and let me suck your dick!!

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Man, I was sleepy!!

I guess I better get up!

I didn't think I orgasmed, but I was feeling really nice!

Apparently it's a common thing that normally happens to women after a good orgasm

I've never had my legs shake like that, but I was really enjoying our intimacy

Me too, baby!!

Turnips and sausage gonna be ready soon!!

Chorizo!

I ignored his friend request and he sent me a message saying he missed me, apologizing, and basically saying he's changed. I ignored the message request. It won't show him that I saw it. I hope he takes a hint

Do you know how to turn on the dryer? Not working...

Thanks honey!!

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Hey love!

I made some really good food that you can have for dinner! Spiced chicken thighs with cabbage, mushroom, peas, and green onion!

I'm gonna take some to work with me!

Hey also, can you buy the clothes rack for me that I sent you? I am gonna start bringing the rest of my clothes over!

Yeah, I was just going to order online!

You can write down the card info and give it to me and I can just order stuff that way!

Here's the food!! It's really yummy!

I had some good poops today! Feeling pretty healthy!!

Maybe tomorrow we can do a light workout together!

Life is so much better in this house then living in my isolated box! I got to hangout with Lara and your mom today! Plus I get to share food with everybody!
I think your mom wants us to come over for dinner on the 1st and I think she's making Persian food!!

How is work going?

Oh I didn't know there was one!!

I wish I could come too!!

Is it going to last long? I can come after work!!

Tell me about these things and I can request off!

Are you still at the party?

I can come

I'm off

Do you want me to come?

Nobody is home

I'm locked out

Yeah

I just got thru the back door!

Want me to come to the party?

I was gonna freshen up before heading over!

I'm driving!

I'm here! Want to help me bring stuff in?

Hey love!! I left a small skillet I'm the sink to soak because I couldn't get the egg off of it. If you could wash it for me I would appreciate it. Also, if you wouldn't mind, can you please bring up the rest of the items that are by the stairs and water the plant for me?

I have no idea! I need to get used to the gas range still I guess!!

Our new sheets!!

Oh okay. I thought it was funny because I take up most of the bed. But I see your point!

Do you like this?

That's what I was thinking! We'll just have to work with the colors that are already there! Keep in mind our bed frame is a light wood color. I got it to match the dresser. Bed frame and mattress have been ordered!

Are you gonna workout today?

Nice!!

I am gonna do one when I get back!!

Hey baby! While you're out there, can you take the black bag that's by the backdoor to the trash?

Let's make an appointment for our backs soon. Mine is really hurting!

I think I really damaged it

If you let me know when would be a good time for you, I can make the appointment for us!

Okay

I'm trying to clean up our space. You don't want your protein powder, right?

It's okay. I trust that we're both in 100% so I can pick up slack where I can and so can you!!

I have been pooping a lot!

Yes!! It's a big deal for me!!

Also means that I'm feeling that this is my home!

I'm cleaning things up!

Are you okay with me replacing the painting that's on the wall with something different?

Okay!

Yesterday when I saw Lara's mom, at first I thought it was Mo! I was like wow, I didn't know that she hung out around Radix!

Then when she was being super friendly I realized must be somebody else!

Hey baby! Do you know if we have light bulbs?

3 of the bulbs are out in our room

Yeah that sounds good! Where are we meeting?

Were your black clothes clean?

Okay!! See you soon!! Okay, I needed to use the basket so I emptied it out. But they're still clean!

Okay baby!

I ordered a few more things for the place today!

And I got you some baby wipes!

Awesome! Have a good workout!!

Could you pick up a couple bottles of cranberry juice from local harvest on your way home?

My UTI has gotten really bad. It's bleeding

Can't have anymore PNV sex until I'm better.

It's okay! I don't think Ruler would have the kind without sugar!

I have enough to last until tomorrow I think! I'll pick up more then!

Yay !

Are you coming now??

We can make food! I have a steak!

Or you can grab food

Whichever !

Don't make plans for the night of your bday! I want to treat you!

So please be free from 6pm

Are you coming home??

Oh okay

Did you bring me food?

Oh okay

I thought you were bringing the food home

No, don't be sorry

I'm making eggs, do you want some?

I just saw a girl that I was briefly friends with when I first moved to Orlando on a snapchat story! It's so weird! She wanted to be my friend, but I ended up staying away from her because she seemed interested only for superficial reasons because she thought I was pretty and my parents had money. I wanted a friend, but not that kind. Anyway, it's so funny to see her now she's getting in social media news for being a proud feminist and sugar baby

We went to the same high school, she's also Middle Eastern, and she's a few inches taller than I am

She talks about her passion being empowering other women to love themselves

She says "at the end of the day, I have no shame about what I'm doing. I love myself."

So weird!!